Monday, February 18, 2008

Ever been afraid to go back to sleep?

You know there are nightmares... and then there are night terrors. Last night I had one of the scariest dreams of my life. The sad part is that I have had it before.

I was in a house. There were spirits of children also in this house. (Much like those in "The Sixth Sense"... if you think of that feeling.) They wanted me to come with them. They were afraid of dying and did not want to be alone when it happened. So I went along with them as they died. The one that I remember is a child taking me to the top of a water slide and us going down it. She fell off the waterslide halfway down. She was not alone, I was there with her when she died.

After this I left the house. I just could not do it anymore. I knew there were two children left in the house (don't ask me how I knew it was two). I stood outside the house and saw a spirit pass by a window.

At this point I woke up. I was literally scared to go back to sleep. I did not want to experiece death anymore. I did fall back to sleep and I did re-enter the house, but that is all I remember.

I have been reflecting on this dream all day. The images though faded in my head are still vivid in my heart. The only reason I have remembered as many details as I have is b/c I shared it with people earlier in the day. After I woke up, I wondered if this was a movie I had seen. That is when I realized I had dreamed it before.

Oh Holy Spirit, what are you trying to tell me? Why must I witness these horrible moments? How can I find peace and rest in the Father's arms?

Father, I know you speak through dreams. What are you trying to say? Help me to listen and understand. If there is any wrong in me, forgive me. If there is a direction I am to travel, show me. Lord, use me in whatever way You see fit. I really do not want to have this dream again. Lord, it scares me. Even though I know I am not to fear and it is only a dream, it seemed so real. Reveal to me your message. My ears and heart are open. Amen.

1 comment:

Marti said...

Hey Tina, I've been thinking about your dream. In my opinion dreams are never literal. I don't think Satan can't hear or get at your thoughts - he can make suggestions but I don't think he knows what we're thinking. Anyway, as I thought about it seemed to me that there may be two things (two children) in your life that you're dealing with that are ending, there is possibly a third that you're not ready to face. You have to let go. I think possibly children show up in your dreams because to you they are safe. Maybe you have to see them through their death because you have to learn how to let go. Just my two cents :) Growth is always scary, but I hope you get some sleep.