I know that my worries will not improve my circumstances.
I know my current pains, will not be my forever pains.
I know You cry harder than I do.
I know Your plans are far grander than my dreams.
I know You "get it" when others don't.
I know You can put words to my sobs.
I know You are always faithful even when I am not to You.
I know all of this... and tons more.
Yet, why can I not feel it?
Why do I just feel so empty?
Why do I just feel so hopeless?
What can I do to bridge that gap between my head and heart?
Can I do anything?
Show me, Lord. Teach me, Lord.
I know You are the answer, but what part of You?
The Caring Father?
The Loving Husband?
The Faithful Friend?
The Just and Merciful Judge?
The Watchful Shepherd?
Which One will break through that barrier and connect with me now.
How can I embrace all of You, and give You all of me at the same time?
I guess I just have to do it.
I do, Father.
I do, Husband.
I do, Friend.
I do, Judge.
I do, Shepherd.
I do, God.
Whatever it is, I do.
I just want my head and heart to match.
So, whatever it is, I do.